Do you think this is envy?

Do you sometimes think about this life and how sometimes, or should i say most of the time, it doesn't seem fair? Do you sometimes wish you can take over someone else's life? Sometimes, I do. And I am sure that a good number of you out there do the same.

What is the meaning of envy? According to merriam webster, envy is a painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage. Ha...a painful or resentful awareness!?! Then thou shall not possess feelings of envy towards his or her fellow man or woman. I beg to differ. I do not possess any ill feelings towards these people, in fact I complement them, but somewhere inside you kind of want what they have. I guess it comes with that whole thing of never being satisfied with what you have. But it makes me wonder, these people that you look at and secretly wish you were in the shoes, do they ever have the same feelings towards someone else? Or are they simply content and truly believe that their lives are perfect? My friend YA thinks differently, she believes that everyone no matter how perfect their lives may seem have their own share of problems. Okay taking it a step further, what if I said I am willing to take their own share of problems for their perfect lives? Okay maybe that's taking it too far.

I have another friend, gosh do I want what she has! A wonderful hubby and a beautiful as hell kid. Don't get me wrong, I dont want hers in particular. I want mine but I want it all a wonderful husband, lovely kid and families that love each other. Is that too much to ask for? It makes you wonder how she played her cards to end up in that position and then could I go back and play my cards the same way and end up like her. I wish I could. Well, people I don't know but do you think this is envy? I don't think so...I think it is simply wishing for the best in your life.

I pray God hears our prayers and gives us the serenity to accept the things we can't change. AMEN!